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November 28 BUSY!!!Hello! Finally my weekend is coming again! This week, is my ever first time so busy with wushu stuffs. Currently we have 5 performances on hand. Each performance takes a lot of planning, music, contacting with the person in charge etc etc. I am still learning and adapting to all these stuffs, for e.g I just learnt how to issue invoice from Janice. I got the tendency to say out my bitterness to Arthur, he is like my mental support with all those admin stuffs and looking for Terence etc. So once he is gone....=( Without Li Yan and Janice, I think my work will be extra hard. Thanks to you two le. =) Last Tuesday, Eugene Coach, boy and I went to recee the place that we will be performing this coming monday for Storm Warriors World Premiere. Everyone is like so excited to see Aaron Kwok and Ekin Cheng. Haha! Too bad my Ah Sa did not come, if not, I will go crazy on that day. This morning went to meet up with Zijing and Shi Yan at JP and passed them our shared diary. We ate at the new korean restaurant at the new foodcourt. The food was so-so only. What should I say about us ne? We are like 3 different people with 3 different personalities from 3 different worlds. Maybe that keep us close and what people say, opposite attracts. There are so many things we have different views on and no matter how long we have been discussing about it, it wont change our own mindsets. Surprisingly, we still can get over with it quickly. After meeting up with them, I went to meet with my parents who were at JP at that time too. We shopped for around 2 hours then I felt that it was too early to go to clubhouse for training later at night. Hence, I went home and took a short nap after that.  ( The 3 of us! Shiyan made this love shape with her leftover rice! Last pic: I <3 U) Now a bit side track of what kind of person I am. I rmb during secondary school, everyone was forced to go for this talk about our personality types to know who we are. And mind you, that talk cost us around $100 and we did a MBTI personality quiz which took us around 1 hour plus. I was almost fainting after finishing the quiz. It is a quiz that involves professionals and psychologists to come to all sorts of results. I still rmb my results. I am a INFJ person. (Introvert, Intuition, Feeling, Judgment) " INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic
and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities.
Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type,
making it the most rare of all the types.
INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in
their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best
system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the
priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within
themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They
know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without
detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and
they usually know it. INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themselves does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive. But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. All kinds of people are drawn towards the INFJ. They are usually quite popular, although they may be unaware of it themselves, because they don't place a lot of importance on it. The INFJ is valued by their close friends for their warmth and consideration, their new and interesting ways of looking at things, and for their ability to inspire and motivate others to be the best that they can be. genuine article that they are. INFJs, making up an estimated 1% of all people, are the most rare type (males even more so). They are introspective, caring, sensitive, gentle and complex people that strive for peace and derive satisfaction from helping others. INFJs are highly intuitive, empathetic and dedicated listeners. These traits tend to act as a "tell me what's wrong" sign on their forehead, hence the nicknames Confidant, Counselor or Empath. INFJs are intensely private and deeply committed to their beliefs. " I find that the results is really true ( If it's not true, I will complain to the person who wasted my $100 bucks!) girl loves boy!!! November 22 Schadenfreude Hello! I came upon this article in Straits Time Lifestyle last Sunday and I finally got my answer that I have been pondering since childhood. When I was young, I always love to think a lot which I also have been doing every now and then in my life. Sometimes, thoughts just wander off to a state where you suddenly feel guilty and you do not wish to think any further. I believe everyone of us does at some parts of our lifes. What do I mean by that? Now I am going to give some real and open door into my thoughts: - I wish to have my own room. I always wanted to have my own privacy and I am still sharing my bedroom with my 16 year old brother. But how? My grandma and my maid need the other room as my grandma has to be taken care of. Guilty of myself: If some day my grandma just leave suddenly... ... - A very poor family who feeds on meagre monthy salary. They need money for their childrens' education fee, household fees etc. Their only old aged mum has left a mediocre sum of money in her will. Guilty of my thought: If their old aged mum just leave suddenly... ... - I am already very tired and I received this phone call from my best friend and she started to yap non-stop about her problems with her boyfriend, her family problems so on and so on and son. I have school the next day and I am already so tired. Guilty of my thought: If she could just stop whining and I can have my beauty sleep... ... - During IVP Ji Ti, we made a lot of mistakes that day during competition but we had put in efforts in practising for many days. The 1st position seems difficult to get now. Guilty of my thought when the other teams start to compete: If somehow one of them could just fell down or make mistakes too... ... Humans have such a complex mindset. They want to be nice people and yet they still have this bad thoughts in their minds. And what are all these evil thoughts that everyone of us has it now and then in our life? There is a word to it (which I have learnt from the newspaper article): Schadenfreude. It's the enjoyment that we derive from witnessing the misfortunes of the others or secret pleasure one may derive from another person's suffering, mostly happens when we do not have that particular thing and we could not get it. It is difficult to condemn this feeling within the framework of conventional morality. To me, it is just too light-hearted and cheerful that we experience only within ourselves or share within closed ones, not 'big' enough to cause real offence to others. It is a kind of insurance, we promise to be good and we want to be good. But at the same time, we have to learn to accept as a matter of fact the daily cruelties, whether big or small. They are part of our life. I feel so disturbed whenever I have this feeling in me .Am I that insecure, that spiritually untethered that I am actually able to find joy in someone else’s misfortunes reflexively!!?? Am I? sigh. In a nutshell, I come to a conclusion. All human is selfish in nature. However, that does not mean that we are bad just because we have experience schadenfreude as that is perfectly normal. You are not human if you do not experience that before. Instead, I feel it is fine with us to have this kind of thoughts sometime as it helps to curb with the urge to resort to violence and so now it only occurs in our own thoughts. So what shall we do when we always and ALWAYS experience this? I think somehow I have find a solution for myself which is happiness in another's good fortune. Honestly speaking, many of us experienced that to our closest ones, but how many of us do that on a daily basis, feeling happiness for anyone apart from our closest ones? It's not that difficult afterall. Things that I feel happy for my people around me are for e.g feeling happy for ShuLing who get GPA 3.4 which is higher than me when I put in more effort than her. Feeling happy when those IVP competitors win me in their traditional chang quan when I know they themselves put in efforts to come to this far too. Feeling happy that my class is getting closer even though sometimes I do not have the time to go out with them but I always treasure the fact that we are the most bonded one of all and they still bother to invite me out for outings. Feeling happy when Boy got 1st in Shuang Dao and Li Yan got 3rd in Lu Hua Dao when I did not get anything for my individual routines. Hence, I do not think it will be that difficult to find your particular someone and I know sometime it may be difficult to indulge in selfless joy of another's good fortune when especially if we are feeling not so happy at all. Well, it sounds easy but definitely I think it will take practice. At the very least we can do is to try those very true emotions of empathy, pity, and compassion. I feel happy at the end of the day. This is how life should be. Full Stop! =) And there is one thing we have to keep in mind and it is explained in this following quote. "To feel envy is human, to savour schadenfreude is devilish" — Arthur Schopenhauer girl loves boy!!! AND ALSO DEFINITELY MY GRANDMA! =) November 21 Weekend is here! Hello! Last Tuesday went out with class to celebrate WanQin and Chastine's 19th birthday! We went to Aston to eat and it was my first time there. Maybe partly because I was too hungry or the food was really delicious, I find that the food there is cheap and nice! No wonder there is always such a long queue. Looks like I probably have to come during weekdays to catch a seat. I like the fries and salad especially! Our class was assigned to sit outdoors and the sun was so sweltering hot. I was having slight giddyness due the stress that I had Contact Lens Fitting practical that morning and wushu till 11pm the previous Monday night. Went home and chatted with karin after lunch while the rest went to watch 2012. Contact Lens Fitting Practical was fine to me. =) Luckily I managed to insert and remove hard lens with only one attempt. Phew! You dont know how nervous I got before the prac test during BV lecture. I was shivering not only because of the cold lecture theatre, but mostly because of my nervousness. I told ShuLing that I wont even get so nervous for my wushu performances lor. >.< Last sem's Retinoscope Practical Test has caused me to have a little phobia of prac test that I may cork up suddenly especially when I am in this PMS period. Cos what happens practically last sem during the Ret's Test was that I did not know what the hell I was doing and thinking after the moment I got the feel that I did not neutralize the reflex with my ret, I just told the teacher I wanted to give up for the rest of my subjective refraction, JCC etc and swallowing my tears. Luckily Mr Sim asked me to continue doing, if not I would have to retest for the whole thing. So stupid right? I know it myself and I am trying to control my emotions sometimes......yeah...trying.....  (WanQin and Chastine the birthday girls! Me, Vanessa and Karin! Those who went for the birthday celebration!) I got this little surprise from my dear wushu friend! Li Yan!!! She brought this TCM which is made especially for women to regulate menstrual cycle and enhance blood circulation to reduce muscle aches! She got this from her brother as her brother's girlfriend has the same problem too. So I was given this precious gift from her and I will try out if it works for me or not.! =) Thanks girl for your concern! HUGS!  ( A LONG 'love letter' from her brother regarding on this box of TCM. HAHA!) This afternoon, I just accompanied my mom to NUH to remove her stitches. She has been at home resting for around one week after her surgery. She has to put pillows behind her back whenever she sits down as she could not get up when her back is completely lying down as her stomach area will ache a lot. After that, boy and I went to library basement to watch Big Momma 2. It was our first time to use the plasma tv in library. You just have to find an empty station and go to the counter and say you want to use that station and they will give you the tv controller. Spent the afternoon laughing away at the comedy with boy! =D Training afterwards. All of them played street soccer. I must admit that I have no knack in soccer AT ALL! I feel like I am an obstruction to them whenever they decided to play soccer. LOL! First, when the ball came flying towards me, I have this tendency to run away from the ball; I dont do that much when playing captain ball. Second, I got this tendency to use my hand to catch the ball. Third, my leg just couldnt control the ball or causing my leg to kick hardly into the empty air whenever I want to aim for the ball.  (Boy and me with headphones on!) I am currently carrying out this 'weekly routine' between my studies, wushu and boy. Monday to Wed : Long school days. Usually knock out once I reach home. Thurs : Afternoon usually will be doing recycling specs. Friday and Saturday will be mostly spending time with boy. Sunday will be the only whole day for me to catch up with my studies! =) BS loves BG!!! November 15 wushu meeting and 2012 outing Hello! Sunday is the only day that I can have rest and catch up with my studies for now le. Yesterday went out with wushu peeps to watch 2012 at Causeway Point. I find the effects of the movie are fantastic but the storyline is not very good. Ups and Downs in this movie. Really do not like to see heroic people dying in the movie which makes my heart hurt. After the movie, we went to Dhoby Ghaut and met up with Alvin, Janice with some other RP wushu people. Wanted to eat at Aston but the queue was super long. I shall try it out someday! So we went to Xin Wang Hk Restaurant instead!  (Lols! wads with all these covering faces! haha! and Yuan Qing's greedy pose!)    (group photos at cinema and dhoby ghaut) On friday night, everyone in wushu club was required to come down for this meeting at T1554 that is organised by the coaches. I can see that the coaches are very serious with our future planning. But honestly speaking, I still have doubts with myself and also the club now. Are we able to do what the coaches expect us to do? How many of us here will strive hard in wushu? How many of us are in this club just want to learn new things but not to stress one self? How many of us willing to compete and keep SP wushu up? Does everyone has the same goal in mind which is to improve oneself and work hard as a team for the grand performance at SP convention centre around Dec 2010? I really hope we have.  (giving of certificates to those who went for the China Trip)  (It was Alvin's birthday that day! Haha! Yilun, Liyan and I were rushing out to light up the candles and when ZY coach turned off the lights, we stepped into the classroom with the lighted candles. SURPRISE!) I am hurt when people do not ask questions to clarify their doubts and they continue to go and tell people their complaints with their misinterpretations in mind. I dont know they do this is to let others know that he or she is putting in a lot of effort or trying to show that they are right without clarifying the facts? When feedbacks come back to me that I realised they have been spreading this misunderstanding bigger and bigger or trying to say bad things about each other when actually it only boils down to one and only simple fact, I feel so #!#@!$#. So I beg you people, please, PLEASE clarify the doubts with me before you tell people why I or we dont do this and that. I am not going to be angry with you. Instead, I will really feel happier if you can say out rather than going behind peoples' back and spreading their bad. We are grown up people already, not kids who always complain to people without knowing what the other party is thinking for you. HAPPY 17th month to baby and me yesterday! <3 I am sorry yesterday. Both of us are in a bad mood with one another. I am sorry to SP wushu peeps too if I may have spread the bad mood in me to you guys. I really enjoy yesterday with you people. Alvin, Janice, LiYan, YiLun, WeiXiang, Arthur, SingHai, ShiMin, YuanQing, Ashley, BingLun, JianSiong, Saen, Fadhil, Raymond and boy. November 11 Monday and Wednesday: Tiring Hello! I am so tired now. I always want to have a short afternoon nap but worry that I cant fall asleep at night, I try to tahan until at night but end up sleeping at around 11pm. I have learnt something now. I must settle all my school work for Monday to Wednesday on Thurs to Sun because everytime I arrange stuffs to do on Mon to Wed, I end up pushing everything to thurs onwards. I feel so tired after coming back from lessons on these first 3 days of the week. Lessons starts at 8am and ending at around 5pm, with torturing practicals where I have to suffer trauma to my eyes by those hard lenses and tiring eye test. So I tried to do something relaxing on Monday to Wednesday night, besides training on usual Mondays. I just finished Harry Potter and The Order Of Phoenix last week and all the 5 movies. I still feel that the books are more exciting than the movies. Feel like fast-forwarding it whenever I watch the movie. Mum's surgery is postponed to tomorrow. Mum and dad already took leave for today. My mum even had to wake up and had her breakfast before 6am and ate the medicine to clear her bowels and when she went to NUH with dad and brother, lying in the ward waiting for the surgery, the person there told her that the doctor was busy today. What kind of reason is that. Mum's got many tumours growing in her uterus that it has to be removed in case they start to turn malignant. She starts to have heavy periods like up to 6 days ( gosh , I have period up to 9 days sometimes huh) and painful periods ( which I has it too). You know, my paternal and maternal sides have this history of illness. My maternal side, my third aunt does not menstruate as she does not have ovules. My paternal side, I have up to around 4 aunts who have their uterus remove surgically, because of the same reason as my mum too. So, I start to wonder if I have this 'bad gene' in me too. And I actually have decided to go for check up after china trip but the idea of queueing up so long in polyclinics and splurging money in hospital checkups after that just turns me off that I have decided to wait and see how is my next period will be like. Cousin Jasmine just posted some of our cousins' photos up in facebook:  ( Me- I was once single eyelid girl, Ming Kiat, Jasmine and then my brother. We all still had this baby fat in us. HAHA!) girl loves boy!!!! MUAHX! November 08 Winning Vs Self-SatisfactionHello!
(Arthur's Tong Bei)
(Sing Hai's Drunken Fist)
(Alvin's Ba Ji)
(Saen's Ba Ji)
(Li Yan's Lu Hua Dao)
(YiLun's Long tassel sword)
(Yuan Qing's Da Dao)
(Alicia's Pu Dao)
(Boy's double broad sword)
(Raymond and Jian Wei's Sparring)
(Jiti Finale) (Thanks supporters, helpers and coaches =D) After that, some of us headed home while some went to Jurong Point and had our dinner. We had a bad experience at LJS. The scenario was something like that. An auntie left her seat of 4 ppl. There were 10 over of us and we walked over thinking we had at least found a sitting place. 2 pairs of good looking couples walked towards us. I thought they want to walk through. I let them passed. Suddenly the female opened her mouth and screamed in hokkien, " KNB! CB! Snatch our seats ! @!##$@!#@!#!" Everyone around us turned around. Then Saen noticed her small little bag lying near the table that we sat. One of the guy pushed Sing Hai. Raymond replied calmly, "Cant you explain properly?" A "F- U" by that guy was shouted back to him. The lady continued " CB! #$!@#$@#! Who do you think you are to take our place?" Saen was already shaking with anger , "Then who do you think you are?" The couples continued to hurl us vulgarities while we left the place. Sometimes, even when we have reasons siding us, reasoning out to them and dealing with this kind of people is no use. They cannot understand reasons and the minds are used to only one thing " Fighting can settle everything." Being educated people as a whole, we chose not to argue with them and left the place graciously. girl loves boy and is proud of you! <333 What is traditional wushu? Hello! I am so frustrated upon one thing that everyone should have noticed today. I am not trying to say anything good or bad about traditional wushu or contemporary wushu or what. But since the competition already has stated there that it is traditional routines for most, it is so obvious that there is simply no rules or deduction of points when competitors do not obey the rules of a traditional routine at all. Traditional Routines:
Even Eugene Coach is stunned when he saw that people adding Xuan Fong, Hou Kong Fan etc could do away with the deduction of points. Still, we have to respect the judges. November 01 Harry Potter craze and wushuHello! Recently I have been spending my free time watching Harry Potter's movies and finishing the series of books. I know I am very late after this craze over Harry Potter has some sort of died down (this happens a lot of time, e.g Boys Over Flowers). Haha! I always think that Harry Potter is a very boring series as I watched the VCD twice when I was around P6 and fell asleep twice, never able to finish watching the movie. Thanks to boy, he has the whole series of the books and VCDs. I borrowed The Philosopher Stone and found myself addicted to this book ever since the first chapter. After watching the movie and reading the book, I find that the book is much interesting as compared to the movie. The book gives a more detailed description on the scenarios etc than the movie and I feel that the actors in the movie were not natural in the way they act, maybe it will get better in the last few series when the actors are older. I just got my wushu costume and it came out as light pink. The manufacturer has made a mistake as I ordered for light purple in the first place. -.-. What for do I need a light pink again when we had 6 pieces of around the same colour as it is? So I wore dark royal pink which is the same colour as YiLun on mock competition ytd night. Ytd no junior came up to support us. We had to carry the chairs and tables back to the original position after the tiring selection. I found my performance for the mock competition ytd quite stable and I hope it will be like this during the competition. I think I got 8.20 if I still rmb correctly. I would be happy if I can get 8.00 above for IVP.  (playing monopoly deal on MRT! Fadhil, boy and Yuan Qing)  (during briefing before the mock competition) Yesterday morning, 7 of us (Alvin, Yuan Qing, Raymond, Li Yan, Janice, Boy and me) went for the subway commercial audition. They actually sent us an email to our club that they are searching for sporty talents for the shooting of commercial. Met them early in the morning at Aljunied and headed towards The Reel Thing Pte Ltd. The company itself looks like a house and we were called one by one for audition. The girls, as well as I, had to act out a scene. Imagine a guy sitting in front of us, smile at him, take the Subway sandwich and eat with delight. Quite awkward though. Haha! Whereas the guys had to pretend he is looking at an enemy and walked towards him, then broke into a smile and said "Hey brother, long time no see." After that we went to Iluma and played at the arcade at the top floor there. Then after that went to ZhiYong coach's house. I was so tired by then. Zhi Yong coach's dog is the fiercest I have ever seen in my life. I wanted to sayang him but it bit me and and kept barking non-stop. His teeth were plucked away as he was too fierce. poor thing.  (Yuan Qing fillin up the form in the company)  (Li Yan, Raymond and Boy filling up the forms at the other side of the room.)  (bought a new adidas water bottle. The adidas cap is extra one.) .jpg) (playing some sort of quiz games at the arcade and the questions are super difficult that Janice came up with an idea which was to choose choice B if you do not know the answer and she ended up with the highest score for twice. HAHA!) I have to rest well this week and before turning in, I will lay on my bed and revise my Cha Quan routine every night to prepare myself mentally for this coming Sat IVP. girl loves boy! |
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